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24th August 2004

12:56am:

I hate to do these update over and over and over again.

BUT I made myself a new livejournal.

Me and big_fuckin_star, we were once tight, but, things happened.

 

Word on the street = aqua_net

Go THERE and comment to be added. Don't do it here. <3

 

"Thank God I wasn't used."

23rd August 2004

11:56pm:

CredzCollapse )

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Tomorrow's course of action:
Wake up around 11.
Shower.
Shave.
Dress up.
Make-up.
Hair up.
Call dad up.
Grab pants.
Grab camera.
Grab wallet.
Leave house.
Meet the Boobs.
Walk to the post office.
Walk to the Park&Ride.
Pay $2.50.
Get to the mall.
Buy Hairspray The Movie.
Buy Crybaby.
Buy MP3.
Buy Hairspray the Soundtrack.
Buy new clothes.
Eat at Ruby Tuesday's?!
Catch the 7:32 bus.
Get picked up.
Stay up all night.

OR

the same thing except get a ride to the post office and/or park&ride.

I think taking the day off tomorrow is a kick ass, stupendous idea.
1:18am: Okay I feel like updating just because.

I was outside tonight, it was really fucking cold out for August, and I saw the stars. I also ate chocolate.

I may take off of work on Tuesday.

I really want Hairspray on DVD. And I want the soundtrack. And I was the new Marcy Playground CD. And I want it now. Maybe that's what I'll do on Tuesday instead of work.... hmmm.

Thanks to some random stranger on Livejournal, I know will refer to myself as:
The Incredible, Edible Egg.

21st August 2004

6:52pm: I suck at reading. Like really bad.
Work today was only made bearable by the kids who waved or said hi. They know who they are. Because my boss was a dick today, and it pissed me off.
My dad also apologized today. He said he doesn't like to disagree with me or my mother. I asked him if we were even disagreeing, because we clearly weren't. He stood quiet for a little bit, then said he doesn't like fighting with me or my mother. I asked what if he thought that this had anything to do with the recyclables, and he said yes. I told him it didn't. He asked what it was.
And I said, "I don't think I'm quite ready to talk to you about that yet."
It's a matter of truth and principles. Try telling a 49 year old man who gave you his DNA that he lied to your face.
I've also been thinking about my sister lately. There is nobody out there who is as genetically close to me as she is. I think that's pretty cool. When I'm with her in a car and it's just us, and we're listening to music going to the mall or something, I can feel that we're close. It's a good comfort.
My 19-year-old neighbor showed up at my doorstep with a bottle of wine. He was asking for a cork screw.
AIM isn't working for me. Maybe I'll just kill myself right now because if I can't be connected to people I might as well die.
Just kidding.
I think I'm going to Kohl's on 17 tonight. That area of 17 is one of my favorite places in the world. I know where everything is. I've spent probably 5% of my life on that one portion of 17. Which is kind of sad, but... I can't help feeling connected to things lately. Like my sister, or 17, even school.
I've been thinking about graduation lately. I know, I know, it's two years off. But I'm wondering what it will be like. Say that my relationships with everyone stay the same. Will it be hard to say good-bye to the kids that I don't really know too well but have been friendly with? Will I see them again? More importantly, if I do, will I even recognize them? I find a major comfort in LRHS, surprisingly, and I don't really want to loose it.
Who plans on going away for college? I kind of want to stay here. I like this feeling of home. Even with how me and my dad aren't getting along, and how my mom is just starting to forgive my dad again, I still like to be here. I have a considerable amount of space for a 16 year old.
Hey, sorry I don't fall into stereotypes. I love my home, but I'm not struggling with acceptance at school. I get along with everyone at school, some kids may even look up to me, but I don't break myself away from my family. I've never let my guard down, and I've always done what I wanted; I can't remember the last time I did something because of the sheer need to be accepted.
It may be time to make a phone call now. Guess to who? I bet you'll never be right.

18th August 2004

6:17pm: I need a silo for illegal purposes.
I need a silo for charity work. Yeah. Charity.

I also need a life.

Help with either will be returned with <3.

Work is driving me crazy. Summer is almost over.
Summer, where did you do? *looks around. Sigh.
My only comfort this week has been Ima Robot.
My only comfort this week has been ripping people off.
My only comfort this week has been YOU!!!! Ba-da-da ba-da-da ba!
How sad.

Okay so I had this dream last night that I was on Outback Jack, and I was one of the final two contestants, so we went on a date Dismissed style. We went to the food court at the Palisades Mall. Yes, the Palisades Mall food court has anything to do with Outback Jack. Anyway, so this girl I was competing against kept giggling a lot and saying stupid things and spelling words for him, so I finally yelled at her. I said, "He's a lumberjack - not an idiot!" With that I lost Outback Jack. So I went to school and everybody was making fun of me except Kevin, who was being really nice. And then all of a sudden he did something mean or had some intent to do something mean, but he didn't. So Leila, in an effort to cheer me up, took me on a roadtrip across America in a convertable with some friends. We stopped at a Popeye's in the middle of the woods, and I was getting pastries that came inside of purses for 25 cents. It took like, forever, and the bitch working at Popeye's let the dog from Pete and Pete out (they didn't even have a dog on Pete and Pete, I don't know what I was dreaming about) so I got really upset and just left. Outside the car had broken down and all of a sudden Mark showed up. So we had to walk. So me, Leila, and some friends were walking in the woods on this path and we were back where we started, except now there was a campsite and lots of people. Mark went into the woman's bathroom with this kid in a wheelchair who was with us and was pushing the kid in the wheelchair at the wall over and over and they were hysterically laughing all the while. So me and Leila get scared and run out before we get in trouble. So we're running away and we hear our friend go, "Stop! You're under arrest - at 11:30 - NUTTY TIME!" We thought it was the cops, so we got scared. Then we saw who it was. Then I woke up.
11:36am: I'm in one of those moods where I want to make 700 worthless posts in one day that no one cares about. And take up half of everybody's friends pages. Punk rock, at it's best.


Besically, the point is, my mom spotted a black Jetta for sale, and being the most amazing lady she is, she took me to go see it, because she knew I'd love it. It was a '97. Boxy. Ugly. THE BEST THING EVER. Over 100,000 miles. Damn,
1:54am: If you really loved me you'd shower me with gifts:






!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

17th August 2004

7:37pm: Semster 1:
Block 1: US History 2 Honors - VanW.
Block 2: Precalculus - Tels.
Block 3a: Soar - Cala.
Block 3a: Study - Knie.
Block 3b: Lunch
Block 4: Inside the Fashion Industry - Kres.
Block 5: Art 1 - Mell.

My comments: Block 3B lunch? Nigga, please. I loved a 4a lunch, because it meant that once I ate lunch, all I had was study and one block to go. Sigh, sigh, sigh. At least I have friends in 3b lunch. :D And Art 1 with Mellon? "You guys lookin' at phatahgraphy?" I don't know how I feel about having a 5th block art class with her. Number one - I'm not good at art, minus photography. Second, photo club will start up, and it will be right after. So from like 1 to 4 once a week will be totally full of Miss Mellon. Oh, boy.

Semester 2:
Block 1: Phys Ed. 3/Phys Ed. 3/Phys Ed. 3/Health 3 - Schu./Pukl
Block 2: Chemistry 1 - Stan.
Block 3: Spanish 4 Honors - Kone.
Block 4a: Lunch
Block 4b: Study
Block 5: English 3 Honors - Smit.

My comments: I like having gym first semester. This will be the first year that I have gym second semester. At least Health is 4th quarter of the semester, so that way I don't have to go outside for gym too much. I love outside. Just not for gym. Spanish 4 Honors? Is there a standard? As crazy as Lauweey was, I'll miss her. I guess I won't be able to cheat my way through Spanish anymore. And if you're going to give me a 3b lunch, you damn well better let me stay in it. What's with all of this hubaloo and moving my lunch around? I've never done this before; I must state that I am a little nervous.

So far I know that I have English History with Leila, Sasha, and Susan; I have SOAR, study, and 1st semester lunch with Leila and LK; I have first semester lunch with Doug; and I have English 3 Honors with Chris Mawson.
Doesn't seem like too bad of a year.

June 23rd, baby. June 23rd.

Oh, and word up --- first year since middle school that I don't have finals on my birthday. To top it off, it's a Friday this year, and a half of a mother fucking day. I am so pumped.

o&o---
LaurenLew

15th August 2004

12:30pm:
These are the ladies and gentlemen who made my summer. <3

You're only sixte-e-e-eeen...Collapse )

<3
LaurenLew

11th August 2004

7:21pm: I went to Warped Tour...Collapse )

<3
LaurenLew

8th August 2004

12:46pm: Maybe I'll just become apathetic.
Everyone seems to be at Warped Tour today; I'm not.
Speaking of which, I'll be gone Tuesday-Wednesday. Text me, call me, make me feel special.
Oh, and I read one page of The Return of the Native this week. Shoot me. For more reasons than that.

<3
LaurenLew

7th August 2004

11:42pm: What a day.
Someone go shopping with me, I want the new Marcy Playground CD.

<3
LaurenLew

6th August 2004

9:17pm: "Do Not Block the Box."
Expect that a lot from me. "Do not block the box."
I went to Philadelphia today. I don't remember the ride down there, but then we got there and parked off of South Street. We went into a cute store, and then my mom like spazzed and dragged me and Annie into the Condom Kingdom. I was totally going to get this little sperm that hangs from the ceiling, but I didn't. They also had... get ready... cola flavored condoms. And my mom blew up a condom with a pump hysterically laughing the whole time. Then I got these shirts, one that says, "Stupid Midgets" and one that says, "Little Shits." I was gonna get one that said, "Our preists are kosher. Warwick (or some town) Christian Pre-School" But I knew that some people would like flip shit and tell me I hate everyone. I shoulda gotten it anyway. Oh well. I also got this righteous little purse. So we went to Johnny Rockets and that was cool. And umm then we went home after South Street shopping. On the way home me, my mom, and my sister talked about rabbit-shapped vibrators and shit like that. Jesus, I don't understand my family, but I love them.
I totally shoulda wrote a 'd' on one of those signs on the street that said, "Do not block the box" so that it would say, "Do not d-block the box."
Oh, garage sale tomorrow, apparently.

And the early part of the week has been:
nothing, dinner, work, Ikea (I got a shitload for $8!!!), and not doing summer reading.

<3
LaurenLew

3rd August 2004

7:49pm:

I see a striking resemblance; do you?

EDIT:

THEY'RE BOTH SIMPSONS, YOU ASSHATS!

Now that that's clear.... who wants to buy:
$5 CDs
Punk -o- Rama 7 click for band listingCollapse )
Punk Bites 2 click for band listingCollapse )
Don't Be Scared Vol. 2 click for band listingCollapse )
Punkzilla: The Compilation click for band listingCollapse )
Punk -o- Rama 8 click for band listingCollapse )
Dr. Martens Music Sampler click for band listingCollapse )
NOFX: White Trash, Two Heebs, and a Bean
Sum 41: All Killer No Filler
Randy: The Human Atom Bombs
Thursday: War All the Time Sold To Jackie.
The Early November: For All of This Sold to Susan.
Jet: Get Born
Good Charlotte: The Young and the Hopeless
Dashboard Confessional: A Mark, A Mission, A Brand, A Scar also comes with "Far From Home Movies" DVD
Anti-Flag: The Terror State
Newly added!!!
Avery: All Screamed Out (Mike, this was originally bought for you, but we never exchanged the $7. Buy it now for $5!! Or anyone else.)

$1 CDs!
Punk Rock Fever by Jolted RecordsCollapse )

Free to the first person who orders!Collapse )
Free to the second person who orders!Collapse )

These are real CDs, not burned, because I'm not a bastard.
12:08am:

I could really go for a good vomit right now. Not to be gross or anything...

So I worked like forever today and then I came home. Annie cried because her pants ripped and she's gaining weight. Then we ate dinner, she cried some more, and complained to my mom about how I got a $22 bra, which my mom backed me up on and said that it was my own money, which it was, and it is a very nice bra that I like very much. Anyway, then I went to Chris's house, and we played Pictionary with Leila and Jon. It was obvious that me and Leila won, so then we passed notes and told secretsCollapse )

I came home, and mom thought PayPal was sueing us but it's just some Class Action Law Suit so we're really not involved, or something. She's pretty pissed; I don't know what her and Annie said when I was gone. Annie had a like a hairy canarie because she has no money because she spends it all on food (then cries about her weight gain) so she, therefore, has no money to spend on back to school clothes.

 

Oh yeah, and the morning of August 2, 2004, I broke a rule. Two, in fact.

<3

LaurenLew

2nd August 2004

6:48pm: Today I was at work listening to the radio, and the news came on:
1. A garbage truck went on fire in West Milford. I want to know who is responsible for that, because if you succeed in lighting a garbage truck ablaze, or even are thinking about it, you have too much time on your hands.
2. George Bush said this thing about the raised terror alert, along the lines of, "The threat of terror will continue until the future." I started laughing because, like, duh. I thought it'll be around until 5 minutes ago.

Oh yeah, I got Zoolander on DVD.

Jesus now likes my Num Lock key instead of the Pause|Break.

If you work at Shop Rite, try to get hours between 12 and 6 on Saturday, August 21; Sunday, August 22; Saturday, August 28; and Sunday, August 29. I'm working there those day, too. (Doing a table for Curious Cookie.) It would rock if my friends were there when I was there, too.

Oh yeah, if you have a friend who is upset or something, writing them a journal entry in run on sentences and using completely improper grammar will not make them feel any better about themselves. In fact, your whole plan may just turn around on you and this person will just hate being your friend even more because you're so dumb.

And... the cheese fries at Ruby Tuesday's are so good, the Super Sampler Appetizer Platter that has cheese fries is just a "tease" so you'll need to get a full order.

<3
LaurenLew

1st August 2004

12:12pm: Don't look now, but I've lost my shoeCollapse )

<3
LaurenLew

THIS IS A BIG, GIANT EDIT!!!!!
Perhaps this Sunday I will be inviting everyone and anyone to my house. I've decided I want to take a stab at fashion photography. If you're interested in modeling for this (this sounds pretty neat, huh?) --- let me now asap!! The only requirements for being a model (haha) are you show up wearing clothes, and you bring a change of clothes. Your clothes combined with my clothes combined with other models clothes will create, in theory, some kickass, badass, mother fucking outfits and everyone, I guarentee, will have a righteous time. Leila gave me the idea to do the shooting for this in my rec room, so practice your billiards, kids, and get ready to make love to the camera. As I said before, if you're interested in modeling, which you definately should be (and I don't want to hear, "But I'm not pretty enough" crap because you are all so hot I can't even touch you) then let me know through comments, aim, or actual real life conversations.
Oh and yeah, if someone wants to do makeup, because it's clear that I have no two brain cells about makeup, then I'd <3 you till the end of the world and beyond.

31st July 2004

1:33am:

This is a note to all of my livejournal friends:

You all suck. No one won the game. It was: Sugarcult and the Planetsmashers. How can you even be considered my friends?!!?!

 

Anyway... who wants to go shopping on someday this week? I have like $200 burning a hole in my wallet the size of Eurasia!

 

I'm on page like 55 or something in "The Return of the Native." I am so proud of myself.

 

<3

LaurenLew

30th July 2004

11:29am: I got five hours of sleep. I'm used to at least eight.
I have six hours of work at Curious Cookie.
Then at six, I get picked up and go straight to babysitting until about midnightish?

And then tomorrow, I get to work another six hours.



I am really, really, really tired.


<3
LaurenLew

28th July 2004

9:24pm: New Found Glory
Coheed & Cambria
Taking Back Sunday
Flogging Molly
Anti Flag
Bouncing Souls
Bad Religion
Yellowcard
Thursday
Story of the Year
Atmosphere
Sugarcult
International Noise Conspiracy
Tiger Army
Lars Frederickson and the Bastards
Rise Against
The Casualties
Rufio
Allister
Avenged Sevenfold
Matchbook Romance
Billy Talent
Guttermouth
Arkham
A Faith Called Chaos
The Briggs
Washington Social Club
Fall Out Boy
Letter Kills
Rose Hill Drive
The Kinison
Planetsmashers
Crowned King
The Commercials
Jersey
Candy Ass
Audio Karate
Amber Pacific
Melee
Rolling Blackouts
Early Man
Break the Silence
Number One Fan
Silverstein
From First To Last
Dynamite Boy
Hidden In Plain View
Brazil
Underoath
Trophy Scars
Underminded
Benton
Johnny Action Figure
Deep Enough To Die
The Preps
Much the Same
As Tall As Lions
Amity
Tokyo Rose
Halifax
Don't Look Down
Boys Night Out
Days Like These
Lightweight Holiday
Staring Back
Nor AM I

Guess which are the only two bands I really feel like seeing. Guess right, and I'll give you a prize.

Edit: Jackie: No re-tries. And I still have your pants.

<3 LaurenLew

Edit.
Okay so I'm sitting her thinking a lot of things.

1. Don't be mean then ask me for something, cause then you'll just end up crying and I will still have my Swedish meatballs.
2. If I'm happy, it doesn't matter to me what you think.
3. Jesus likes my Pause|BreakCollapse ) button.
4. I know my short stories were written with no attention span or thought process. I like them that way.
5. I want to quit work because I have no time to breathe anymore.
6. Annie needs to order tickets for Warped Tour.
7. I need to go back to school shopping.
8. Why wants to do my summer reading for money?
9. People haven't been just numbers since Nazi Germany. We can let the numbers go, okay?
10. I don't give a flying fuck what you think, I will always love the ATeens.
12:17am:

I felt so good tonight.

 

<3

LaurenLew

 

 

P.S. If someone would like to babysit for me on Friday night I would really love you forever. All you need to do is feed two kid's a Kid's Cuisine, read them two books, tell them a story, and watch Satellite Television all night.

25th July 2004

10:22pm: Expect mail.



Who thinks Steph should come back to New Jersey?

<3
LaurenLew

24th July 2004

11:59pm: ...you can be the whale.Collapse )

And today I woke up early and worked and babysat and the end.

<3
LaurenLew
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